Why don’t I think I will get married?
Because of fear.
Because men scare me: physically, emotionally...
Because I don’t know how to stand up for myself, advocate for myself and that is so important in a marriage.
Because I consider myself undesirable and don’t know how anyone could see me otherwise.
Because deep down, I feel myself unworthy.
Because no one has ever considered me.
Because I have no sense of worthiness and believe, through and through, that no man would ever want me.
Because I’ve seen too many marriages fail and know my heart couldn’t take that. Because I’ve never had a real relationship and I don’t know how to.
Because I see my thin, beautiful, thoughtful, smart, witty friends unmarried and think that if they can’t find anyone, there’s no hope for me.
Because I always push those I most desire away by my neediness.
Because I haven’t had good examples.
Because men have hurt me.
Because I’m scared of my depression and don’t ever want to put that on someone else.
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